Miracle of a few quarters

So this last week I have spent a LOT of time up at school, trying to study for tests and finish school projects. Since I've been up there I've basically wasted all of my spare change and dollar bills on vending machine food to hold me over until I get home.

Well yesterday it was snowing pretty hard (I am not a fan of Utah weather), so I put on my winter coat to go to school. After spending a few hours in the library, I put back on my jacket and realized that my pocket was full of quarters. On my way to a test review I stopped by the vending machine to get something to drink when I suddenly realized where the quarters came from. These quarters were from Logan's old bedroom. I had picked them up and he let me have them. I gave them to his niece Rylie, but she gave them back to me. This was during Logan's last week with me before he left and we were packing up his bedroom.

I sat toiling and playing with the quarters for a good few minutes, debating whether I should spend them. They were some of the last things Logan had given me. I then remembered, how he would never want me to go hungry or thirsty, he would want them to be put to good use. Upon putting the quarters in the machine to get a fuze drink, I realized it had been over a month since Logan has bought me anything. While we were together he would buy me anything that I wanted all the time. He insisted that I never go hungry. He took me out to eat practically every day and helped me each time at the grocery store when I came up short on cash, so I wouldn't have to put anything back. I guess after three years of that, I took it for granted. Now, experiencing a month without him and having Logan's money pay for a drink that cost a measly two dollars, it hit me what a miracle he has been in my life. Whether it was Burger King, or Chili's or Los Hermonos, or a 60 dollar plate in Disney World, he never once complained, the money wasn't what mattered to him, it was me.

I probably looked like a fool standing at a vending machine getting teary eyed. But how amazing it was to have one thing (even if it was only a two dollar thing) be taken care of for me. I didn't have to write up that two dollars in my budget, I didn't have to think twice about where it came from, it was just taken care of. It was the small gift of two dollars that finally after all these years helped me appreciate the hundreds and probably thousands that have been spent in my behalf. I cannot put into words the gratefulness in my heart. Thank you Logan, I know I will never be able to repay you, and I'm sorry I took it for granted while you were around. I love you, Thank you SO much!!